"its not so easy knowing what you want, let alone fighting for it. And whence you do fight for it, how do you know the reasons will stay the same when the fight ends? and how do you know if you would actually want what you first thought you wanted when you have achieved it.

they say the people who do not change are ignorant of the truth and will never know serenity. But the truth is, The people who do change and evolve, and learn from experiences are the one's who will never know what they truely want. when they strive for what they want, they learn, and change, and their wants change. And the emptiness remains, every so deeper it buries itself as time passes by.

So pray, tell, what is it that this wisdom to change would grant me that the ignorance of stubborness would not? And where is the serenity so promised to me when i discarded my beliefs to accept the truth and change?

There was once a time when i believed truth brought upon our souls peace; so I always kept in mind the thought "whatever i know is nothing to what there is to know, I am nothing, the truth is everything". But the thought that gave me reason enough to search for the truth has made me realize that peace is the last thing that truth brings upon our souls.

There is no reward for virtue, there is no serenity in truth, there is only suffering. and that suffering is for the sake of notions that matter more than our peace, our rewards, our thoughts and our existance. and so those who submit themselves to rightousness, inflict these wounds upon themselves. But I, I am not of the rightous, I am not pure, I will have my serenity, I will have my peace; let truth be the cost, let virtue be slaughtered. Because in the end, when i perish, these notions will have thier time and their heroes. I will not have a saviour, I am my own Saviour."

-Hidden-paw (Ali)